Do you know how tired I am of hearing things like that? Just because I’m “pretty” doesn’t mean I can’t be sad. Do you know how dumb it would be if I just looked in the mirror, and said, “Hey! I’m hot, why am I sad? Being sad is for ugly people.” Just because I’m pretty doesn’t mean I can’t have a broken heart. Obviously it’s not enough to make him stay, so it’s not going to be enough to get me over him. So until the day I figure out how to smile again, this pretty face is going to be crying. 

I stood up and walked out of the church.

I feel terrible because I just found out. I found out from Facebook. He’s in the ICU. He had been posting about how he was going to kill himself, and I didn’t even know. I feel like I’ve neglected him. I know there are plenty of other people feeling the same way, but it’s just…ridiculous. So everyone, can you please pray for him? And if you’re not religious, I don’t know, make your 11:11 wish for him, I suppose. If you’re not about that either, then please, I’m begging you, make a change. I know that sounds corny, but it’s real. No one should feel alone. No one should feel like they have no way out. Hug your friends and tell them you love them, and mean it. And if you’re someone who feels like suicide is the best choice for them, PLEASE just talk to me. Don’t make that mistake. Suicide isn’t the only option or the best option, not by a long shot. I love you, and there are millions of people out there who would love you if you just gave it a chance. 

Really ? Is there a way for me to smack the stupid out of you , or are you gonna die like that ? Pathetic. Absolutely pathetic. Words can’t express how much this pissed me off. I wanted to just reach over , grab her by the hair , and smack her face into my cat’s litterbox. So what if someone’s gay ? Does it hurt you ? No. Stop being such an ignorant little prick and let people be happy. And HOW are you going to let it get to you so much that it impacts your taste in music ? I swear , this made me angrier than a hippo with a hernia. Get over yourself , homophobia isn’t cute. 

Oh , really , he’s gay ? Is that why he has a hot ass girlfriend ? I’m a straight girl and even I know Selena Gomez is sexy. Is that why millions of girls around the world would kill for the chance to even TOUCH him ? Face it , Justin Bieber could get more bitches in five minutes than you could in your whole life. Sorry , I’m not sorry. 

My best friend likes this girl. That’d be all fine and dandy , but this girl has a boyfriend. My best friend knows this , and he doesn’t see any problem with STILL chasing this girl. I can’t stand this situation ; the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach. He’s becoming the thing I’ve sworn to hate since my dad married one: a homewrecker. Naturally , I spoke my mind. I told him what he was doing was wrong ; would he want someone coming in to his relationship and tearing it apart ? No. So he rationalized it. Her boyfriend is an asshole , he doesn’t appreciate her enough , blah blah blah. Does that make it okay to cheat ? No it does not. Even if he’s not the one doing the cheating , he’s encouraging it. He’s CAUSING it. I told him I couldn’t approve and couldn’t see him the same way again if he kept at it ; that I thought he was better than that. And now he’s angry with me. Was I supposed to just sit back while my best friend makes a huge mistake with a girl who isn’t worth it ? If she cheats on her boyfriend , then she really isn’t worth it. But I don’t think she’s worth losing my best friend over , either…I don’t know what to do.

1. He lets me fall asleep on his shoulder in class and doesn’t complain. Even though I sit on the right side of him , and he’s right handed so he can’t write , he doesn’t mind. He writes with his left hand so he doesn’t bother me.
2. He pulls up my sleeves every day to make sure I’m not hurting myself.
3. He picks me up when I hug him , just to laugh at me and call me short.
4. He draws on all of my books and writes his name on everything I own , so everyone knows he “owns my life.”
5. He picks me up and puts me in the nearest trashcan if I backsass him.
6. He rhymes my name with everything he can think of and makes a song out of it.
7. He puts me up on his feet and walks , just to be a cool kid. 
8. He holds my hands , looks me deep in the eyes , leans in close , and says , “Your ass is phenomenal today.” 
9. He walks behind me and kicks the bottom of my feet to trip me.
10. He knows when I’m sad , and latches onto me like a koala and buries his face in my hair until I’m better.
11. He saves a seat for me every day in lunch and yells at anybody else who tries to sit there.
12. He takes my soda cans and water bottles and crushes them , before I’m finished.
13. He messes up my hair that took me an hour to do and says , “There , sex hair. Gorgeous.”
14. He worries about me if I don’t come to school and calls me on oovoo to make sure I’m okay. 
15. He gives me one end of his headphones in class and plays all my favorite songs.

He treats me better than anyone I’ve ever met. I don’t know where I’d be without him , I don’t even know if I’d be alive.

DON’T FUCKING START THEM. It’s stupid. If you’ve never been on the wrong end of a rumor , you understand. It’s vicious and cruel and just plain wrong to spread a rumor about someone , especially if they’ve never done anything to you. Like , would you want someone spreading rumors about you ? No. So shut your damn mouth and quit being pathetic. 

Well , I’ve been pretending to be happy for as long as I can remember…how much longer do I have to wait ?

If you wanna bad mouth me , don’t be a coward and do it on anon. For all I know , the person doing the anon hating could be some insecure little kid , just trying to make themselves feel better by knocking someone else down. Simply pathetic. Honestly , I think it’s pathetic to send anyone hate , anon or not. How could you do that to someone ? You don’t know them , you don’t know their story. Don’t be the reason someone doesn’t wanna wake up in the morning.

I a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y HATE it when people thank God for everything. Like , if you wanna do it , that’s okay , but leave me out of it. Earlier , someone told me , “You should be grateful for what the lord has provided you with. He has been generous to you.” Excuse you ? No. God didn’t give me anything. You know how I came to have what I have ? Work. I didn’t get anything by praying for it. I got it by going out in the real world and EARNING it. Another example. I hate it when people thank god for having a job. Like , give yourself some credit ! God didn’t give you that job , your boss did. And your boss gave you that job because you took the initiative to apply. You got it because you deserved it , not because you folded your hands , closed your eyes , and talked to a person who lives in the sky and plays a huge game of The Sims with man kind. 

Okay , so , that may sound a little mean. But there’s a difference between being rude being being rude on occasion. People that truly believe that everyone on the world was put there to please them really make me wanna tie some cinderblocks to their ankles and throw them in the ocean. Well , maybe not THAT extreme…but you catch my drift. Don’t be a rude person ! I can understand if you had a bad day or something , but don’t just go ahead and be nasty to everyone all the time. Eventually , you’ll be alone. And do you REALLY wanna be alone ?